Sunday, April 28, 2013

Murder in a Small Town

Tuesday, September 16, 1986, was just another school day for most of us kids. We lived in a small community of 5,000 people and nothing much ever happened here. Oh, sure, there was the occasional escaped elephant from the circus or tragic incident on the river, highway, or farm fields that hemmed us in, but for the most part the days all tumbled one after another in a monotonous fashion.

That was, until my friend received a message at the middle school near the end of the day that Tuesday, instructing her not to go home.

“Why can’t you go home?” we asked her.

“Because there’s a crime scene next door.”

My friend lived in a duplex just a couple blocks west of the middle school, and as soon as the last bell rang for the day we took off for her house.

We had to skirt a growing number of cars parked on neighboring streets, crime scene tape, and groups of people standing around staring, yet we were able to maneuver close enough until we were standing directly across the road from the scene of the crime.

My friend lived in the right side of the duplex and a pair of garages sat side-by-side in the middle of the building. On the left side’s driveway was a pick-up truck with the tailgate hanging open. And there, on the ground behind the truck and right in full view of us, was a white sheet draped over what could only be a body.

A police car and another truck were parked at the curb inside the crime scene tape. The rest of the police cars were not a part of the crime scene but a part of the investigation.

No one in the crowd really knew what was going on, but we all had guesses. The most logical conclusion in my mind was that the person under the white tarp had been shot by the police officer. But what happened that the police officer had needed to shoot him? My 13-year-old mind surveyed the area for clues. The open gate on the pickup seemed to say that there was something in the back that was important. Drugs, perhaps? And maybe when the man realized that he had been caught with an illegal substance he put up a fight or brandished a weapon, and therefore the officer shot in self defense.

In a logical world, this might have been how it went. Yet as we soon found out, it was decidedly more disturbing than that.

My friend’s next-door neighbor, shot dead in his driveway, had indeed had drugs in his truck. But that was about as accurate as my sleuthing got.

Just two days earlier, on September 14, 1986, President Reagan addressed the nation in a speech that would become famous as his “Just Say No” war on drugs. His anti-drug message hit home with many people, one of whom was an off-balance police officer.

Two days later, as the officer was on duty in our small town, he got a call about a man who had been seen with marijuana in the back of his truck. A citizen had seen this man harvesting marijuana in a local park. A warden for the DNR who was in the area was also notified and followed the man in his truck back to his home, next door to where my friend lived. The warden parked his truck at the curb and waited for the officer to arrive.

When the police officer arrived, he asked the suspect to step out of his truck. The police report states that a brief struggle ensued but the officer and warden managed to subdue the man. He was placed facedown onto the driveway with his hands handcuffed behind his back. The suspect was frightened by the officer’s aggressiveness, so the warden kindly told him, “I’ll make sure no one hurts you.”

The warden checked the back of the truck for marijuana and then asked the officer for evidence bags. The officer said they wouldn’t be necessary. Standing over the man with both hands on his gun, the officer then proceeded to unload two rounds from his service revolver into the back of the man’s head as he lay face down on the ground.

The warden, fearing for his life, asked if the officer was going to shoot him, too. He replied that he was not. The officer then put his weapon away and took off the dead man’s handcuffs. The warden retreated to his truck, placed his own gun on his lap for protection, and radioed for help.

The officer had a history of psychosis and had gone off his medication days earlier. When the officer’s home was later searched, they found a large amount of Reagan paraphernalia, such as bumper stickers, buttons, posters, and even letters that he had written to Ron and Nancy. The officer was convicted and sentenced to life in a mental institution.

I didn’t know the depth of the tragedy that day as I stood in the late summer sunshine. Even as the man’s body lay yards from me, I still believed that death was something that happened to other people and for logical reasons. But after that day some of our town’s innocence was lost, and perhaps some of my own.


(*Endnote: I have to believe that those involved in this day have seen their name connected to this tragic event more than they wish. Therefore I have decided to leave out any identifying names because the last thing they need is another rehashing of this murder the next time they Google their name or the name of their loved one. One curious note, however, is that all three men’s first names were John.)

Sunday, April 21, 2013

To Read Me Is to Know Me

“To read a writer is for me not merely to get an idea of what he says, but to go off with him and travel in his company.” – André Gide

I want to thank all the readers who have gone on this journey with me. As a writer, I write books not just because there is a story in my head but because I believe the story needs to be heard. I published my first two novels on Kindle not because I had been turned down by every agent I could find (in fact, I didn’t even query that much), but because I realized that finding an agent and then a publisher and getting published could take years, and I couldn’t wait that long. My characters needed to be heard, and I wanted people to read my stories and meet these people who had been occupying my head for so long much more than I wanted to hold a physical book in my hand.

So for all of you who have read my books, starting with the puzzle book Badger Brain Twisters (Trails Media), to the children’s book Solar System Forecast (Sylvan Dell), to The Gathering Storm and Storm Damage I published on Kindle, and even the unpublished novel A Different Sky, which I am going the traditional route with and looking for an agent and publisher … I thank you for reading my blood, sweat, and tears. Writing can seem like a very solitary task, but I never lose sight of the fact that my readers are there, waiting for me to hurry up and finish so they can take the walk with me.

I truly treasure my readers and especially those who have given me feedback on a book or just taken the time to walk up to me and tell me that they enjoyed it. Reading the thoughts and emotions of my characters is like seeing a glimpse into my soul. When you connect with one of my characters, you are connecting with me, because that character came from within the deepest part of me. As a beginning writer, I have obviously not had thousands of people read my books thus far, and you would be surprised by some of those who know me and still haven’t read them. I’ll always have questions as to why some of the closest people to me haven’t read my work: Are they afraid of what they’ll read? Do they not want to acknowledge my achievements or validate my work? And over time, those who have not cared to “travel in my company,” as André Gide says, will find themselves without it more and more. Because if someone you loved gave you the chance to see inside their soul to their biggest fears and greatest joys, wouldn’t you take them up on it? I know I would.